No I Haven’t Died and I Didn’t Fall Off of My Great Self-Esteem Wagon

Sometimes there just aren’t enough hours in the day. And I know I’m the only one who ever feels stressed, like I’m running in place without getting anywhere and tired. You just can’t relate right? But that is not a valid excuse not to blog.

Well I’m here, still loving my life, feeling great about myself most of the time and yes, I’ve lost weight. I’m down 22.4# – I was waiting to post when I had hit 25# because I’m losing slowly but then said screw it! I’m proud, feeling great and look mahvelous at any weight! (well except first thing in the morning. I never look good with my hair all greased up, old mascara on my face and dried drool).

Oprah and I are kicking it with WW – no this isn’t an ad for them (but hey if they’d give me free membership I would do that). I really just eat healthy and have adjusted. I did promise myself that once a month I will eat ice cream and it will be from my two BFFs who’ve never let me down – Ben & Jerry. Hey I’m not dead and I love ice cream, so if I’m going to eat it, make it the best.

I’ve just got to get my ass in gear though and work out. I’ve never been an athlete although I’ve always wanted to be. I can play golf, used to play tennis, like to walk slowly – more of a ramble – but I’m really much better at head games than actual physical games. I keep thinking I’m going to change that. Yeah, that hasn’t happened yet. Just ain’t in the genes.

So that’s my next move. I feel like a klutz – which I am – and not very confident at the gym. It’s funny. I really don’t care most of the time what people think about me but the gym is different. As I’m driving I car dance and sing along and know people look at me but I think they just wish they could be that open and carefree. Or I gave them a good story for when they get to work.

I do have awful feet and a bunion that is the size of half of my foot (hey kids wearing high heels may look really cute but it will catch up to you – or at least your feet. It ain’t worth it) and even getting up off of the floor in yoga is very painful. I try to adapt but while I do have a high tolerance for pain, something about it being on my foot is much worse.

And we won’t even talk about my lack of balance.

So if anyone has a great idea of an exercise that I can do that helps me burn fat, increase my cardio and I look super cool doing it, let me know. Seriously. I need to move.

All joking aside, I have to say you guys floored me. So many women reached out to me from my last blog post and said I spoke for them, helped them and made them feel not so alone. Seriously, that was amazing. All I did was say the truth for my own freedom and I was and am so touched by your honesty with me and your trust. Thank you.

Ok, now help me get my ass moving!